Psalms, Benedict, Sisters

The amazing sisters of St Gertrude’s deserve a beautifully written article. This blog post will be longer than others I have written this summer, perhaps only semi-coherent, but hopefully readable. Now that I have lowered your expectations, let me begin.

Anger, violence, sadness, praise, awe, images of creation, fear, hope, regret, calls for justice, gratitude, remembrance–that sums up the contents of the Psalms we pray through reading and singing during morning and evening prayer at St Gertrude’s and, I assume, every monastic community that uses some adaptation of Benedict’s psalter. It is not formatted numerically but thematically–he really did a brilliant job. Here, we read or sing three psalms at morning and evening prayer. Every prayer service also includes a canticle from scripture, read or sung. In the morning we have a reading from the Rule of Benedict. The sister in charge of leading prayer for the week also reads either the assigned scripture reading or chooses something of her own interest. My first few days here we heard portions of an article from Catholic News Service by Sister Gallares, Sowers of Prophetic Hope for the Planet: A Biblical Perspective. “Wow!” I thought to myself. “This is going to be a great three-weeks.”

Lest you begin to wonder if Benedict was stuck in the Old Testament, nothing could be further from the truth. Morning prayer ends with the Canticle of Zechariah and evening prayer ends with the Canticle of Mary. And we celebrate the Lord’s Supper nearly everyday! At 11:30 am we celebrate Eucharist everyday but Tuesday and Saturday. On those two days we substitute Midday Praise, which is the service that helps us tackle the lengthy Psalm 119. Although on Sundays our gospel comes from Luke, our weekday gospel text is from Matthew. St Gertrude’s follows the three-year lectionary for Sunday readings and the two-year lectionary for weekdays. Our Old Testament weekday lessons are semi-continuous as we were in Deuteronomy when I arrived and now we are in Ruth.

Excursus: We also get to recognize saints who have gone before us. I was particularly excited for Aug. 20, St Bernard of Clairvaux, because after a horrible experience in Dr Bernard McGinn’s History of Christian Thought II course, I took him again for a great seminar and ended up writing a paper on Bernard of Clairvaux. During evening prayer and at the noon meal we also recognize sisters and oblates–birthdays, anniversaries of vows, and anniversaries of deaths.

And so, what is the effect of praying through scripture multiple times a day? These sisters know the old old story of our faith, that is to be sure. Their lives, both at the monastery and out in their previous work places, to me seem to reveal a particular hermeneutic (way of interpreting scripture). I asked the priest, a Benedictine himself from the monastery in Jerome,  Idaho if there is such a thing as a Benedictine hermeneutic. He was not sure. The monasteries I know about–St Gertrude’s, Holy Wisdom in Madison, WI (both of my parents have been there and still receive their publication), and St. Benedict’s in St Joseph, MN (which I visited on a college field trip)–all have similar commitments to peacemaking, serving the marginalized, and working towards church unity.

The longer I have stayed here, it has become obvious that the hermeneutic they share is St Benedict’s Rule, even the more traditional monasteries. Benedict’s rule was all about living together in community. Reading through its summary called to my mind Dietrich Bonhoeffer’s Life Together (encouraged preparatory reading for my first summer working at Camp Christian in Montana).

In her book, The Rule of Benedict: Insights for the Ages, Benedictine Sister Joan Chittister’s writes ” The difficulty with understanding Benedictine spirituality comes in reading some sections of the rule without reading the entire document. The fact is that Benedictine spirituality is not based in dualism, in the notion that things fo the world are bad for us and things of the spirit are good. We are not to pray too long but we are to pray always. Self-discipline is a given, but wine and food and the creature comforts fo a bed with bedding are also considered necessary. The rule is for everyone, including the abbot or prioress, and yet everyone is a potential exception to it.”

When I have thought about Benedictines, I always thought about hospitality. In her commentary on Chapter 66: The Porter [doorkeeper] of the Monastery, Chittister writes, “If there is any chapter in the rule that demonstrates Benedictine openness to life and, at the same time, models a manner of living int he midst of society without being consumed by it, this is surely the one. Guests are welcomed enthusiastically in Benedictine spirituality but, at the same time, life is not to be frittered away on work, on social life, on the public bustle of the day. The community is to stay as self-contained as possible so that centered in the monastery they stay centered in their hearts. More, this balance between public and private, between openness and centeredness on interior growth is to be remembered and rehearsed over and over again: ‘We wish this rule to be read often,’ the rule says plaintively so that the monastic never forgets that the role of committed Christians is always to grow richer themselves so that they can give richly to others.” The woman can write!

I was thinking deeply, on my drive up two weeks ago, about how various monastic orders have different charisms or emphases. I served in the Jesuit Volunteer Corps (JVC) in Syracuse, New York between college and graduate school and learned a bit about that order, founded by St Ignatius. The four tenets of the JVC are Social Justice, Community, Simple Lifestyle and Spirituality. (See, it should not surprise anyone that I ended up spending three weeks in a monastic community.) The museum at St Gertrude’s has an excellent display explaining the similarities and differences between different orders:

However….

I do believe that the Benedictine emphasis on praying through the psalms and lectionary readings would do us all well. We cannot share the Gospel of Jesus Christ if we do not know and love the Gospel ourselves. We cannot tell a story we do now know. And one way to learn it is to read it again and again at different stages of life while we are in different stages of faith.

However, I do not think we all need to cloister ourselves off; live in isolation. Jesus himself tried to get away from the crowds but he was never cloistered. Times of rest and renewal are incredibly valuable, writes the pastor in the middle of her sabbatical. The sisters who founded St Gertrude’s came from Switzerland and intended to be cloistered but it never happened. “We had to make a living!” one sister responded to me at dinner when I asked if they had ever been cloistered at St Gertrude’s. (The following photos are also from the monastery’s museum).

Then 43 years ago, the summer I was born, something tremendous happened and I think the ripples are still felt today. The spirit of this place can be traced back to how they received what came out of Vatican II.

And still, the sisters here today are not isolated. These sisters open their doors to visitors every day of the week for worship, retreats, and hosted events. Over 30,000 people come through this place in a single year I was told. There are over 80 oblates (lay members) affiliated with St Gertrude’s. The sisters here are living out their mission faithfully: “Eager to welcome God’s transforming power in ourselves and our world, we seek God together through monastic profession and respond with our core values: Healing Hospitality, Grateful Simplicity, Creative Peacemaking.”

I return to the reading of the psalms, day in and day out, without getting to skip any. What does that do to a community, when you all know that you are not just praying the prayers written so long ago, not just praying the prayers passed down from generation to generation? These are, after all, our prayers too.

I will close with this reflection on praying the psalms by Benedictine Oblate Kathleen Norris, from her book The Cloister Walk, “But to the modern reader the psalms can seem impenetrable: how in the world can we read, let alone pray, these angry and often violent poems from the ancient warrior culture? At a glance they seem overwhelmingly patriarchal, ill-tempered, moralistic, vengeful, and often seem to reflect precisely what is wrong with our world. And that’s the point, or part of it. As one reads the psalms every day, it becomes clear that the world they depict is not really so different from our own; the fourth-century monk Athanasius wrote that the psalms ‘become like a mirror to the person singing them,’ and this is as true now as when he wrote it. The psalms remind us that the way we judge each other, with harsh words and acts of vengeance, constitutes injustice, and they remind us that it is the powerless in society who are overwhelmed when injustice becomes institutionalized.”

 

 

 

 

 

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Time at the Monastery

I am so glad I decided on three weeks at the Monastery of St. Gertrude. I have been here almost a week and I feel like I am just settling in.

Crazy coincidence, when I arrived, another woman pastor, also on sabbatical with a Lilly grant, was staying down the hall. Laurie and I have several friends in common, she is going to Ireland later in her sabbatical, and both of our dads are age 92.

 

The Spirit Center, where I am staying, is quiet. I have been doing academic reading in the afternoons (the center has its own library) and fiction in the evenings. In the mornings I walk the grounds, including the big hill (with great views of the Palouse) behind the monastery. There is a beautiful, in my opinion, structure to the day. Generally we are in the chapel for prayer at 8:30am, 11:30 am, and 5pm. I cannot emphasize this enough–I love praying through the psalter. I love the moments left for silence. I love praying scripture aloud as a community several times a day. I do not know what all of this means for life in Nampa but my spiritual director assures me I do not need to have that figured out right now. I can just enjoy the time here.

Today is the Feast Day of the Assumption of Mary so Eucharist was especially festive and we had an actual feast in the dining hall.

Today also happens to be the middle of the Idaho County Fair so the two artists-in-residence (an important piece of life at the monastery which I will blog more about later) and I went into Cottonwood to take in the fair and go to the local coffee shop, which pays tribute to the sisters at St. Gertrude.

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Friendship, Church, Idaho

One thing I wanted to do on sabbatical was explore some parts of my home region. When our sabbatical task force first put together the calendar we never dreamed that I would get to do the exploring with friends from Iowa. I met Dan and Molly Gerrietts when Dan I were in our first-calls as pastors in the Western Iowa Synod. We were all part of the group that met at Buffalo Alice’s in Sioux City, which I blogged about earlier this year. Dan now serves as senior pastor of Trinity Lutheran in Mason City and is also on sabbatical this summer. Dan, Molly and their two daughters joined me for four days before heading to Seattle. We had many wonderful conversations about religion and culture in the Intermountain Northwest and Midwest, the future of the mainline church, our families, books, music, late night television, and the gifts of rest and reflection.

Facilitated a reunion: my friend and colleague Casey and Dan overlapped at Warburg Seminary

Had a long talk with Pastor Andrew Kukla at First Presbyterian Church before lunch with my colleagues Pastor Mike Sager (Hope Lutheran, Eagle) and Pastor Gretchen Bingea (Immanuel Lutheran, Boise)

Spent a blissful afternoon in the excellent and air-conditioned Idaho State Museum. Here we are reminiscing about Oregon Trail.

Photographing Boise’s Freak Alley Gallery.

Presentation at World Center for Birds of Prey

Took the girls on their first trip white-water rafting. Class 1-3 rapids on the lower Payette River. Kudos to Cascade Rafting for a great afternoon.

Showed them the shipping containers turned into houses at Windy Court.

Shopping for dinner at Albertsons Market Street in Meridian. It did not disappoint.

Dan’s FB post after we all visited Trinity, Nampa.

 

 

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Big Wonderful Sunday

A friend texted this morning, “So what do you do on a Sunday of sabbatical?”

I got to attend a goodbye party for a friend and colleague. Marni and I met the first time I taught the Enneagram Journey, about four years ago, and this year she was the MSW supervisor for our Trinity New Hope (affordable housing) MSW Intern from Northwest Nazarene University.

Then I attended worship at St. Paul Baptist Church near downtown Boise. Thanks to colleague Pastor Mike Sager for the recommendation. They have a great choir and the sermon provided what I needed after the two mass shootings. A member took me out to lunch after worship.

I read at a coffee shop in Eagle for a few hours.

Three great friends took me out for a late birthday dinner: Gretchen, Candice, and Joy.

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Re-entry, Friends, History

I predicted that the sabbatical would really hit me when I woke up after returning from Ireland and did not have to go back to work. I was right. The last week and half has been weird while also being great. I have cleaned parts of my house (like that plant shelf in my kitchen) more thoroughly than I have in the past. I have slept, read, caught up with so many friends, seen some good films and explored some of Southern Idaho.

Saturday breakfast with Phil and Jodi, before they spent the weekend with Trinity Lutheran, Nampa.

Friends: Thank to everyone who wanted to catch up with me during this interlude between Ireland and the Monastery at St. Gertrude’s in Cottonwood (where I’ll head Aug. 8). It has been great fun to hear friends’ stories. I value friendships so much and am thankful to have friends who are colleagues (professional public ministers who totally get what I do) and to have friends who work outside the church (who give me insights into fields like public education, science, and private practice). I also got to meet new friends (Phil and Jodi, pictured above).

Last Trivia Night with Emely and Brendan (center) before they move to Costa Rica for new jobs.

McCall: I had not been in McCall for a weekend in about seven years. There were so many people! Still, the lake front is beautiful and it was good to worship Sunday morning with about 30 people at St. Andrew’s Episcopal Church.

Movies: Toy Story 4, Rocketman (such great storytelling!), Late Night (great cast), and Joy and I saw Apollo 11 (incredible technical work on this one) on a rainy night in Limerick.

Museums: I still have a few on my list but I did get to visit the Idaho State Museum. Here are some of my favorite sections:

In Mountain Shadows is on my bibliography for my Doctor in Ministry project.

Trinity Lutheran Church delivers school supplies to Duck Valley at the end of each summer.

Loved going into the theater and listening to each of the origins stories–so well done.

Every Gen X person, like me, will love seeing this.

Wonderful interactive displays, like this one, on the lower level.

Good use of visual arts.

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Musings after the Ireland Trip

I have so many things to write about after my trip to Ireland with my friend Joy (July 5-23). It was a great decision to not take my laptop and to only post photos and captions in my blog. These factors allowed me to really experience each day without over processing everything. Here are the ten things, in no particular order, I am pondering the day after my return.

My parents gave and continue to give me so much. Everything from the way I pack a suitcase to the way I make connections to my love of learning can be traced back to both the home I grew up in and and experiences they encouraged me to have without them.

I will always love physical books but I cannot believe it took the Lilly grant for me to finally buy a Kindle. For traveling, there is nothing better. I am always sure to have enough reading materials in case I get stuck somewhere (thanks again Mom and Dad). Now I will always be prepared without having to lug multiple books.

Go to enough museums, have enough conversations, read any history and you soon realize that the Irish narrative is one of continual invasions and robbing the Gaelic people of their language and culture. I do not know what to make of this yet but I think it is an interesting coincidence that I a began my sabbatical in Ireland and will end it on the Pine Ridge Reservation in my home state of South Dakota speaking with the Lakota.

My travel companion Joy has told me about John O’Donahue’s book Anam Cara since she first studied in Galway. I finally read it on the trip. It is beautifully written and so full of wisdom. Wow!

I love my job as a parish pastor but I also still love history, one of my college majors at Concordia, and I think I would have loved being a museum curator today. We visited a variety of museums which use technology to different degrees. The Irish Emigration Museum in Dublin and King John’s Castle in Limerick both did masterful jobs using technology to tell stories.

When I was preparing for sabbatical I will admit that I was thinking of storytelling mostly with words, probably because I have always loved words. My other college major was English writing. But the art galleries and concerts we attended reminded me that the arts (music, painting, dance) can all tell stories very effectively.

Joy and I only spent a little under two hours with an intern at Narrative 4 in Limerick but it was an important piece of the trip. I love what this nonprofit does–teaches kids empathy through listening and storytelling. Thanks to my college English professor Dr. Dawn Duncan for recommending this stop.

Another small (if measuring time spent) but significant stop was the Moth and the Butterfly in Galway. They only meet once a month so I am so happy we were able to join them for the evening. The stories we heard are still swirling around in me. I bought Moth and Butterfly founder Orla McGovern’s book, Dublin Folktales for Children. I have added The Moth (produced by The Moth in NYC) to my list of podcasts. So far it is great.

Joy has been teaching in the United Arab Emirates for two school years. I knew hearing about her experience would be part of the trip. In addition to being proud of my friend for following her dream to live overseas, I am now fascinated by this country; I even looked up books about it while at the Newark airport yesterday. I picked up my mail today, which included the latest issue of The Christian Century, and turned to this article about religion in the UAE.

Finally, staying in Bed and Breakfasts is an amazing way to hear stories. I thought we would hear stories of the Irish people in the pubs in the evenings but it was hearing from our hosts upon arrival (or in their cars as they drove us somewhere) and then hearing from other guests over breakfast that ended up being the biggest surprise. What a gift to exchange stories over morning tea and toast.

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Ireland Part Three

Venue-Katie’s Cottage, Galway

Ready for storytelling

Joy and I with “Moth and Butterfly” founder and host Orla McGovern

At the Cliffs of Moher

View of Aran Islands and Connemara from the Cliffs of Moher

Attended “Trad on the Prom” in Salt Hill.

Part of the Galway International Arts Festival (GIAF)

Three Oscar Wilde stories woven together into one play (GIAF)

In the big tent at GIAF. RTE National Symphony John Williams tribute concert

Worshiped at St. Mary’s Cathedral (Church of Ireland, Anglican)

Great exhibit at Limerick’s Hunt Museum on a rainy Sunday afternoon

Wonderful morning with staff at Ireland’s Narrative 4

More storytelling through visual arts, this time at the Limerick City Art Gallery

Limerick City Art Gallery

View from atop King John’s Castle (begun in 1212)

King John’s Castle and bridge over the Shannon River

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Ireland Part Two

Sheep block the Western Way in Connemara

 

View from the front door of our Saturday night lodging at Lough Inagh Lodge

Leaving Lough Inagh

Into the Shire (what Joy and I began calling every forest)

Boat ride out of Leenane on Ireland’s only fjord-Killary Harbour

One of many stiles we used July 15

Our Western Way guidepost

Descending from Sheefry Pass

Croagh Patrick (Patrick’s Mountain)

Track down to Westport Bay

Town of Westport in County Mayo

Attended “Atlantic Notes” at Westport’s Town Hall Theater-music, dance, and stories from the Wild Atlantic Way

 

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Ireland Part One

Dublin Writers Museum

 

Book of Kells and Old Library Trinity College Dublin

Room about Storytelling at Irish Emigration Museum

  • Bronze Age hill fort on Aran Islands

    Kilronan Village (where we stayed)

    St Benan’s Church

    Boardwalk in Lackavrea Forest

    River in Maam Valley

     

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Sabbatical – Week One

I am leaving this morning, Saturday, for Ireland. I am so glad I gave myself a week to rest and unwind before departure. I went shopping for the trip. Thanks to a few Trinity members for suggesting I go to Costco for a wide brim hat–they had one hat in two colors which is the right amount of options for me. I went to REI to get trail snacks, more Smart Wool, and iodine tablets. I might have cried if I had had to choose from all of the hats there.

I have had fun remembering my trip to Lutherland last summer. I have been reading Stasiland: Stories from Behind the Berlin Wall, which I bought on the trip. After looking at piles of photos and travel memorabilia for seven months, I finally completed my Lutherland scrapbook! I also am up-to-date on my Nampa scrapbook, had stuff in another pile going back to summer 2017. It was kind of relaxing. I did not cut cute shapes or make nice backdrops for photos but I did get everything pasted into the books and added some commentary. That is a win for me.

The most surprising thing about the week was the lack of sermon preparation and what that did for my head. Even when I go on two-week vacation or continuing education trip I look ahead to what I will be preaching on when I return. You never know when inspiration will hit you. But looking at the texts for Oct. 13 seemed ridiculous. So I pulled out my doctor in ministry project bibliography. I downloaded all of my journal articles, thanks to access through the Graduate Theological Union Library, and then I went to the local library. I learned that I can have two interlibrary loan requests in at a time with the Nampa public library. The best lesson of the week is that as a resident of Idaho I can get a library card for Boise State University’s library, which has three books I need.

(Christa and me on Idaho Street)

(statue of former Idaho Governor Cecil D. Andrus, near the State Capitol)

The highlight of the week was catching up with a friend. Christa’s three weeks with her Boise family overlapped with my first week of sabbatical. Christa served as pastors of two local Methodist congregations when I was a few years into serving at Trinity. Now she is 20 months into a call serving a Nazarene (her home denomination) congregation in Nashville. We spent much of Wednesday in downtown Boise (on Idaho’s anniversary of statehood day) and most of Thursday in Nampa.

 

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